Thursday, February 22, 2018

Sleep Training Day 3

I put her down after feeding. It was 10 minutes past 10pm. Way past her bedtime. She didn't budge but when she realized that I was leaving she started crying. I didn't look back. I went straight to our room and laid down my bed. I looked at the clock and took note of the time. The crying stopped after 3 minutes. Wow. Did it finally work?

You are just teaching her a good sleeping habit. Don't cry again. She's not hurt. She's just not used to being alone. You've done this before. I told myself.

Yes, I've done this before. She was 5 months. It was easier at that time because there was no separation anxiety yet. But all that training went to waste when we went for a 2 month vacation in the Philippines. Vacations changes routines. New environment. Different bed arrangement. Yada yada...

After 10 minutes, I couldn't wait any longer. I had to check her. I found her kneeling on her crib. Asleep. She was waiting for me again just like last night. I carried her immediately. After cradling her briefly, I laid her down back to the crib. No crying. Eyes still closed. She's finally sleeping.

Maia 9 months 

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Sleep Training Day 2

Her first nap went smoothly earlier at lunch time. I put her down after eating lunch and some comfort feeding. There was no resistance nor crying. Sigh.

Fast forward to night time, she looked at me as I laid her down to her bed. No resistance but she didn't close her eyes either. She was watching me, waiting for my next move. Will she leave again or will she stay.

I slowly closed the door. The damn thing squeaked. Then crying started again. It stopped after 5 minutes but I didn't checked her immediately. I decided to wait for the husband. This time, I wanted him to open the door. 

After 10 minutes, he slowly went inside the room. Oh! he said. What? what happened? I said as I followed inside. She fell asleep waiting for you. And then I looked. My baby was sitting standing, holding the bars of her crib. Asleep.

Another poke in my wounded heart.

The husband immediately got her and cradled and kissed and hugged. And then I hugged both of them while Maia was deeply sleeping on her Dada's arms.

The husband laid her on the adjacent bed. She was deeply sleeping. I decided to dream nurse her for comfort. Probably more for my wounded heart than her. 

What happened during dinner...

She skipped her second nap so we had to start dinner earlier than usual. The jar of vegetable soup porridge was almost empty after the last spoonful. She must have liked it. I purposely left some room for dessert which was mandarin oranges. She almost devoured the whole thing. Someone's going to have a good sleep tonight. I excitedly thought.

I felt something mushy under her bum as I got her from her chair. Must be the oranges.

As we got nearer to the bathroom, I realized that it wasn't oranges that I felt.

Poop explosion! I shouted. Husband came to the rescue and we both started laughing while giving her a bath.

After bath time, we went straight to her room. In the great green room, there was a telephone... as I was feeding her. 

Monday, February 19, 2018

Breakfast

Morning started rough today. Halfway through feeding her banana oatmeal and feeding myself, she refused to open her mouth for the next spoon. Shook her head side to side. She can't be done.

Can you bring out the yogurt and blueberries from the fridge please? I asked the husband. Maybe she just doesn't like oatmeal today.

I started mushing the banana with the yogurt and blabbered "I hope you'll like this. You haven't eaten that much".

She had 3 spoonfuls then started shaking her head again. Mouth close.
 -Maia 9.3 months

Sleep Training

Tonight I broke my heart. I'm crying. My heart is bleeding. Whenever I close my eyes, all I can see is her sad face.

She's been crying for 15 minutes, maybe more. I was too. Then I heard silence. She's finally asleep, I said to myself.  I went straight to my husband's office and embraced him. Then cried some more. This is hard but I think she's finally asleep I told him. I stood up and went to her room. Twisted the door knob ever so slowly and opened the door. There she was standing on her crib. Waiting and looking down. When she realized I was there, she looked straight at me then started crying again. I quickly carried her. Embraced her hard and kissed her. Sorry, I'm really sorry I whispered. I love you, I love you I whispered some more.

-Maia 9.3 months